Springs of living water

The heart of God the Father is Missional. He always sends, He always reaches out. He sent His Son to save the world, then he sent His Holy Spirit who in turn empowered the apostles and sent them on mission to be Christ's ambassadors, He still does that.

I'm a restless type, might be because of my INFP type personality or there is something of God that doesn't leave me to settle, most probably both working in unity, but one is certain, I'm restless. I cant imagine living for a career, earthly possessions ( and yes we need them, but that is secondary),and i found out that no matter how fun life is i will soon find it boring. Four walls piety is not my cup of tea, i can't lie myself with false fires of the type "we will save the world" if after i have passed the times of youthful zeal i don't consciously choose to live radical missional life no matter how much that hurts. Yes i want to live for the Kingdom of God, and even to say "want" is not doing justice, because is stronger than my will, even if temporary things succeed to deceive me for a while, this " want" comes back even stronger, and I'm glad it comes back.

One of my all time missional hero's is St. Patrick. He was British living in the fourth century. His grandfather was priest but Patrick would find personal faith after he was captured when being a teenager and sold as slave to a Celtic druid in Ireland. He started praying to God and after some time it turned into something that consumed his life, it is said that he prayed most of the day while he was herding the swines of his master. One night while sleeping he had a dream that next day he should be on the shores and that there is a ship that will take him home. Next day all that came to pass and he escaped his slavery. Some say that after this he went to a monastery in France and then went back to England. He was trained to become a priest and served faithfully for two decades and when being in his forties he received the "Macedonian call", the voice of the Lord clearly calling him to go back to the Irish people who didn't have any knowledge of the Lord and be their apostle. Patrick's heart was burning for the Irish. Once again the Lord was sending someone. The outcome was thousands being saved and in a century the whole Ireland coming to know the Lord, leaving in history one of the most vibrant and beautiful chrisitan movement of all times whose streams are still inspiring thousands and hopefully will give fruit again.

In my next post i will write my conclusions on studying this movement and analyzes that can help us bringing the Beauty of the Lord to the post-christian and post-modern generation

i had a dream

I had a dream. It was the most beautiful dream. Suddenly i freaked out on the thought that it's a dream and will end. I started to speak in the dream" I'm afraid this is a dream, may somebody slap my face, please someone". No one dared. i slapped my face , it was numb. I woke up. I had a dream....

Ok people, sorry i was gone for almost two years from the blogging world, but staying around my friend Shea , i got the inspiration to start it again. i just went through some of my post and is so good to read again what was going on in my life , so i guess you'll reed more often from me.

miami ink

The best hallelujah i'v ever heard

Aiming the stars

Just kidding, but yesterday was great. We ( Vanity fair) were playing in club "Kastro" taking part in the annual Rock Fest. We were competing with the other bands, and got most votes that night which means we will probably go to the finals.
The way we played was awesome, you could feel the energy, and i think i'm getting new addiction--- playing live:)

new stuff

The sun on the elbow needs to be finished, i have done also the japanese style clouds that are beneath the sun.

Work in process

There is more work to be done on this one but it's good how it develops

drawings

Before and after

Some work done

Punk Monk Tattoos

Finally i have started tattooing again!

Are you sure you want to be yakuza?

Ohrid Boiler room ?

Yeah, I spent last several days in Ohrid with Scot and Gricko and it was great time visiting some people that we know, discovering new Irish pub  but also spying the land for the boiler room idea.
Scot came with this idea some weeks ago and it’s growing beyond just a good idea, we can sense God in to all of this.
The idea is starting a boiler room in Ohrid after Scot and Misty spend a year at a boiler room that Markus is leading, get in to Transit school, and than start that in Ohrid. And the place is perfect for this kind of things.
It is a town with reach history, there was University found by St.Klement with 3000 students 200 years before the university in Bologna, the monasteries around were rich learning and spiritual centers. We met one local philosopher who tour us around historical places, and it was so special when he was explaining some of the old Christian symbols and how the early Christians found Christ in everything (not in a pantheistic way that everything is God but that you can see him in everything) and how they lived in harmony with the nature, things that we, 21-th century digitals need to rediscover.
It’s a perfect place for mission, three months of intense tourism makes this place one of the most strategic place in Macedonia, and contemplation, the slow pace of life and breathtaking nature through the rest of the year make it a place where someone can in combination with discipline and communal life be transformed in to a spiritual giant.

one punk under God

Muse - Showbiz

Jack Bauer rulz!!!!

If you have chance to watch this episodes, do it. It’s the best thing I have watched for years and all those statements that you will read on the cover of other DVD’s how suspense is this or that movie can be flushed in the toilet. 24 is the definition of suspense.It’s real art to make 24 episodes that keeps you biting your finger nails. There’s great insight into leadership, and you can learn a lot how can ego and arrogance blur you for the right decisions.
Scot and Misty have the season four and they can be your official dealers, but when you get addicted and feel the first signs of withdrawal, please don’t cry, there are others in your shoes too :)

To blog or not to blog?

It was a while since I haven’t written anything on my blog, which gives you time to consider why am I doing the things I’m doing. This past year and so was an amazing time of bloging journey, and I went through many phases of what this is.
Someone can say it’s a freedom of speech, so anyone can write whatever he/she likes, and I can say yes on that. We are all individuals and anyone should express on their way. It was a journey to me, from the highlands of happy moments, highroads of traveling, valleys of sorrow, deep moments, shallow moments, pure fun, boredom, I was naked (not in a literal sense) and vulnerable to that point that I have considered deleting the post next day. To come to my point--- I see bloging as a great tool to stay in touch with people, get in to their lives and they into mine, it is a wonderful medium of self expression and connection, but there is a thing that really start bothering me, and it is concerning those that I know personally but this concern can be applied universally. What bothers me is why we are not so real in our real lives and relationships, why is so easy to be honest when you are alone in front of your "radioactive" screen, why is so easy to express yourself, but when we come together we have so little to say, so many shallow words and acts, so much afraid of each other, so afraid to be who we are. Our posts scream for intimacy, acceptance and real friendship, but after all it’s secure in front of the screen, right??!!
Friends it is a global alienation of persons, more and more are searching for their intimacy in one small modem where we can be who we like to be, no one sees our eyes, and this post is not against bloging nor limiting our freedom of speech and expression, but a call to come out of our worlds, to start building friendships, to be who we are made by God, to laugh and cry, to be strong .to be vulnerable and after all TO BE REAL!!!!!

Stoned reporter

Check this out, whenever you are depressed watch it and you will immediately come out of it…..

Info

Ok I left my job, moving from apartment in to my small house that I have been renovating this past 10 days, several days left to the 24-7 conference in London, I will try to be more on the blog but I don’t have internet at my new place so will see...
Among many sheets of paper on which I write my thoughts I found this one while I was moving.

I said to myself, I will stop dreaming about real love, I will meet my needs.
And I stuck a knife into my heart.
I have killed myself